october 19 in san francisco. the nike women's marathon. i'm training with the leukemia and lymphoma society's team in training. i have to raise $4,100 by september.
link to my training blog. now with comments! further down is the link to my team in training page. i'd post here, but this laptop isn't letting me access my site. oy, i was wrong. here is my fundraising site. :)
please pimp out my fundraising page - i need all the help i can get in raising the money for this awesome organization.
Monday, May 19, 2008
quick update
bah - i keep meaning to come and pot on this blog but i don't think about it until after i am in bed.
ireally want to use this as a journal and just spew out all my dysfunction. i think that will help a lot. in the mean time bach flower remedies rock!!
i passed the babe april 15 and after all was said and done i was 11 weeks along (or 10 weeks 6 days but 11 weeks is easier to say) and it was a boy. i'll have to dig up the link but there was genital shots of 11 week fetus on line and our, uh fetus? baby? how does one refer to one that young? definitely looked like boy.
i wanted to name him. the mister didn't really want to but was fine if i did. he gave very little input for the name but i did get an okay. he said it made him to sd to think about.
oliver is the first name. a name i've liked for a long time. i suggested the name when we were pregnant with boychik but dh said it would be better for a subsequent boy. fine with me.
then i started calling my cat oliver. this is the best cat evah in the whole entire world. her given name was tsume renshu but i called her renny. i started saying 'i love her' in a stupid lovey voice reserved for favorite animals or small babies. and the 'i love her' morphed into oliver. when i saw her i would just say oliver in a regular voice and mean 'i love her'. we had to put renny down when i was pregnant with little miss crazy p - (feb 27 06 if you wanted a date).
i figured this would be the perfect opportunity to name a child with a name that i love and has a special meaning to me. cause the mister is adamant about no olivers cause of the cat.
middle name i was stuck with. finally chose daniel. heard danny boy at the kids concert which made me think of the name. cheesy predictable? yeah, but who cares.
i FINALLY stopped bleeding a week and a half ago. it got really bad. then get a little better and back to really bad. sucked big time.
ireally want to use this as a journal and just spew out all my dysfunction. i think that will help a lot. in the mean time bach flower remedies rock!!
i passed the babe april 15 and after all was said and done i was 11 weeks along (or 10 weeks 6 days but 11 weeks is easier to say) and it was a boy. i'll have to dig up the link but there was genital shots of 11 week fetus on line and our, uh fetus? baby? how does one refer to one that young? definitely looked like boy.
i wanted to name him. the mister didn't really want to but was fine if i did. he gave very little input for the name but i did get an okay. he said it made him to sd to think about.
oliver is the first name. a name i've liked for a long time. i suggested the name when we were pregnant with boychik but dh said it would be better for a subsequent boy. fine with me.
then i started calling my cat oliver. this is the best cat evah in the whole entire world. her given name was tsume renshu but i called her renny. i started saying 'i love her' in a stupid lovey voice reserved for favorite animals or small babies. and the 'i love her' morphed into oliver. when i saw her i would just say oliver in a regular voice and mean 'i love her'. we had to put renny down when i was pregnant with little miss crazy p - (feb 27 06 if you wanted a date).
i figured this would be the perfect opportunity to name a child with a name that i love and has a special meaning to me. cause the mister is adamant about no olivers cause of the cat.
middle name i was stuck with. finally chose daniel. heard danny boy at the kids concert which made me think of the name. cheesy predictable? yeah, but who cares.
i FINALLY stopped bleeding a week and a half ago. it got really bad. then get a little better and back to really bad. sucked big time.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Happy Tax Day - it's done
I passed the baby/fetus/whatever you want to call it tonight. Last night I felt some really weird flutterkicking in the uterine area and some slight cramping. This morning I started spotting and went through about 7 or 8 pads. Cramping on and off most of the day.
Took a long bath around 6ish. Got out and was setting up a nice comfy spot in the bed with a laptop (yay we have one now! It belongs to dh for his business, but I play on it until he needs it). Right when I was getting to lay down I felt a pop and fluid started to come out. It was the water breaking. Very sweet smelling. I'm always amazed at the smell of birth fluids. It's sweet. You wouldn't think that though.
Went to the bathtub, stripped, passed the baby (it didn't look like a fetus. It's probably been 3 weeks since it died so it disintegrated? Body reabsorbed? It looked like greyish blob with a spine. translucent live a live shrimp) and then squatted over a bowl and passed the placenta (with what looks like a cord??) and loads of blood clots.
All in all from the pop to cleaning up it was a little over 2 hours. The worst of the cramps felt like bad period cramps but not in the league of labor cramps.
Jeff was outside with the kids for the beginning part and then they came in played and he realized what was going on and then did his best to keep them away.
It feels like after birth. Some crampiness and still some bleeding. Not sure about after miscarriage. Will this bleeding lead into a period or will there be bleeding for a couple of days and then nothing until the next period.
I do question why this happened. This was something we were avoiding and then it happened and then it didn't happen. I am one of those annoying people that want to know WHY. But there is no answer. bah.
Took a long bath around 6ish. Got out and was setting up a nice comfy spot in the bed with a laptop (yay we have one now! It belongs to dh for his business, but I play on it until he needs it). Right when I was getting to lay down I felt a pop and fluid started to come out. It was the water breaking. Very sweet smelling. I'm always amazed at the smell of birth fluids. It's sweet. You wouldn't think that though.
Went to the bathtub, stripped, passed the baby (it didn't look like a fetus. It's probably been 3 weeks since it died so it disintegrated? Body reabsorbed? It looked like greyish blob with a spine. translucent live a live shrimp) and then squatted over a bowl and passed the placenta (with what looks like a cord??) and loads of blood clots.
All in all from the pop to cleaning up it was a little over 2 hours. The worst of the cramps felt like bad period cramps but not in the league of labor cramps.
Jeff was outside with the kids for the beginning part and then they came in played and he realized what was going on and then did his best to keep them away.
It feels like after birth. Some crampiness and still some bleeding. Not sure about after miscarriage. Will this bleeding lead into a period or will there be bleeding for a couple of days and then nothing until the next period.
I do question why this happened. This was something we were avoiding and then it happened and then it didn't happen. I am one of those annoying people that want to know WHY. But there is no answer. bah.
Friday, March 28, 2008
sike
not pregnant. went to a scan yesterday and baby measured 8 week 6 day and no heartbeat. no way to know when baby stopped. psycho doc said that fetus had a genetic abnormality (thickened nuchal fold and some large pockets of fluid along the spine). he was very nice in the scan room. in his office a different story. i swear i was in some bizarro world. black funerals, irish funerals, his uncle's funeral, pastors who are buttholes.
i saw him one time before. he's our midwife's back up ob and we met him during t's pregnancy. he seemed like a perfectly sane person then.
the mister is having a hard time. i was thinking blighted ovum so it's not too much of a surprise. it was sad to see the weeness. we've opted to let nature take it's course.
i saw him one time before. he's our midwife's back up ob and we met him during t's pregnancy. he seemed like a perfectly sane person then.
the mister is having a hard time. i was thinking blighted ovum so it's not too much of a surprise. it was sad to see the weeness. we've opted to let nature take it's course.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
2/3 Little Free
I & T went with their grandmother and great-grandfather to a cousin's first birthday party 3 hours away. They are spending the night at a hotel! get to swim! watch tv! eat whatever they want! They are beyond excited.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
still sleeping in their beds
yay!!!
Must be the universe's way of keeping balance in teh force cause *coughwearepregnantagaincough*
The 5K is in a week and a half. Day before Easter. The dog is a big pain in the butt. Remind me why we have her again? I am seriously thinking of giving the dog back. She's had diarrhea since we got her (7 weeks ago? 8?). We took her in to the vet and she took her antibiotics and parasite treatment (the kind that can pass to people and dangerous to littles) and she's still poops rank-ass water poo.
And she bit Penelope. Didn't break the skin. P unintentionally woke the dog up from a sleep. I was sitting RIGHTTHERE too.
Our house smells like sick dog butt. And Bonus!!! She has heartworms.
Must be the universe's way of keeping balance in teh force cause *coughwearepregnantagaincough*
The 5K is in a week and a half. Day before Easter. The dog is a big pain in the butt. Remind me why we have her again? I am seriously thinking of giving the dog back. She's had diarrhea since we got her (7 weeks ago? 8?). We took her in to the vet and she took her antibiotics and parasite treatment (the kind that can pass to people and dangerous to littles) and she's still poops rank-ass water poo.
And she bit Penelope. Didn't break the skin. P unintentionally woke the dog up from a sleep. I was sitting RIGHTTHERE too.
Our house smells like sick dog butt. And Bonus!!! She has heartworms.
Monday, March 3, 2008
growing up
THe older two (6 & 4) slept in their own beds last night. We set the bunk beds up and they snuggled happily and went to sleep. This is the first time ever they have slept without us. pleasepleaseplease stay this way!!
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